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40 weeks pregnant! Baby, come out!

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Here we are, I have reached full term of pregnancy. I weigh 72 kg; bump circumference has reached 110cm. Today I’m actually two days overdue already, yet I don’t feel like giving birth yet, I don’t see any signs of approaching labour. Overall I feel great, I don’t have much of any pains, don’t feel tired (unless I’m active, I’m still lazy though).

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Hopefully the last bump picture of this pregnancy

There were two days over a week ago, when my hips hurt a lot suddenly to the point where it even hurt to walk, it was very painful getting inside bed and positioning myself comfortably. At that point I was certain that labour will start in a day or two, otherwise my hips wouldn’t be doing that. It literally felt like someone had taken a hammer and smacked my bones into many small pieces. However, that pain went away, and my hips are almost OK now. There is still some of the old hip pain there, but I can live with it very well.

Last time I went to doctor, everything looked good or even excellent – heart tones, baby’s positioning, my blood pressure. I did blood and pee test, and turns out these have improved too, as I no longer have iron deficiency anaemia, ferritin is within norm and haemoglobin has risen to 113 (below standard for a normal person, but good for me). That I’m very happy about.

Throughout my pregnancy, I’ve managed to stay healthy and not get ill, except the time when I had stomach flu. I was hoping to stay healthy for the rest of the pregnancy but, unfortunately, I did catch a cold last week and was a bit poorly. At first, my tonsils were swollen and painful for 3 days, then that went away but I had a sore throat and a slight cough for a couple of days. That has gone too, but now I’m still dealing with a stuffy nose. All in all, I’m happy that all of this came in a light form, with no high temperature, and I managed to deal with it naturally, and nothing progressed to a cold badness. I’m also happy that labour didn’t start while I was in this not so good condition.

This week we also managed to do shopping for the last things baby will need – crib bumper pads and a changing surface for the wardrobe, which we have finally also received and which I assembled. We also got a festive fake Christmas tree with built-in fibre-optic lights, which I was joyfully jumping up and down about. That is the first Christmas tree I’ve had since living away from parents, and although it’s small, I love it and it means a lot to me. Now there is one little wrapped gift under it, waiting for Christmas.

Everything seems to be done now, and we are completely ready for the baby to come. I hope it will come soon, at least soon enough that I wouldn’t have to get induced. I trust that the baby knows his own karma and when he needs and is supposed to come. And I hope he knows I don’t want him to tear my vagina apart completely. Well, I don’t want a C-section either, so if a slightly torn vagina is what it takes to not be cut open to get the baby out, I’m even OK with that.

Tomorrow is my hopefully last doctor appointment before the birth, we’ll see how we are then. Who knows, maybe labour will have started even before this appointment. Only the baby knows with his karma situation.

38 weeks pregnant and engaged!

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The first snow came and went, now the second snow has come with the first advent. I’m starting a two-week countdown to my due date. I’m now with my most precious thing in the world – the couch. My days recently are spent sitting on it, binge-watching a Turkish soap opera online. Very unlike me, I don’t really like soapies, but I saw one episode of this one while visiting my parents, and got hooked! It’s a never-ending drama, intrigue and cliff-hangers. I don’t go out or move around much, for which I do feel a bit guilty, I should be more active. I promise, I’ll try to do better!

The only pregnancy symptoms remaining recently is the hip pain, which I’m used to. I tend to have more intense training contractions, which come on more at those few times when I’m not sitting on the couch and am somewhat active. One of those times was a few days ago, when me and my partner went shopping for a week’s worth of food. Good thing I had a shopping trolley to support myself on, as the contractions were pretty much back-to-back constant, and the bump hurt in between them from how the baby is moving in there. Must be a funny sight, me bending over all the time at the shop to relax.

The bump is stretched out to the max and very itchy, I feel bad for the little peanut, he doesn’t have much space to move around anymore, he can just slightly stretch his limbs and change the position of his feet from one side to the other. It’s OK, the day of freedom is getting closer and closer.

I also have gotten some small stretchmarks – not on the actual bump surprisingly, but on my sides, although nothing really seems to be that stretched out there. I hope they will disappear without scarring later, as they look like they’re in the deeper layer of the flesh, not the surface of the skin.

In hopes to prevent or at least lessen tears, I’ve started doing perennial massage on myself – not a very pleasant process to be honest. During pregnancy, everything down there has gotten very sensitive and different. I saw a video on YouTube where episiotomy is performed during birth – no, I don’t want that! And I probably shouldn’t have watched that… No, no, no, no, no!

I’m almost ready to give birth – all the lists are checked off, hospital suitcase is ready, baby has a GP, I’ve written a birth plan, his bed is waiting next to ours. The only thing missing is his wardrobe with changing surface – the shop I ordered it from is late. I ordered both the bed and wardrobe six weeks ago, and have only gotten the bed. Must call tomorrow and demand my stuff, it’s been too long! Because of this, all baby clothes, toys and other things are lingering in his pram and bed. I’m frustrated that I can’t put everything in its own place.

My mum brought me some wool and knitting/crocheting sticks, so yesterday I not only sat on the couch, but also crocheted baby booties by following instructions given in a YouTube video. Finished the first bootie, started the second, and realised when I was halfway through the second that it’s a lot smaller than the first! I had such a laughing fit because of this, with laugh tears, that was so funny! Shared a picture of them with my family – dad said the baby wouldn’t know the difference anyway! LOL! Eventually I took the bigger one apart and crocheted a new one, then they both matched more or less in the end.

 

 

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The ring!

It was my birthday last week. I had a nice and peaceful day with no guests, my partner cooked me dinner while I had cake. We had a skype call with his parents and unpacked presents that they sent me for my birthday. After that call, my partner presented me with his gift – a ring, and not on the phone! We were both holding back tears, as he gave me a touching speech, got on one knee and proposed. I said yes, of course! We are now engaged, I’m so very happy about it and can’t wait to be his wife! I feel so blessed for all the good things that have come my way this year.

35 weeks pregnant!

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Holy guacamole, this is getting real! The birth is approaching inevitably. I’m not freaking out or anything yet, trying not to be scared. I’m trying to look at labour as hard work, that’s why it is called labour. My bump circumference is 106 cm, and I weigh 68 kg on my home scales (70 on doctor’s scales, for some reason they always show 2 extra kilos). Baby seems happy and active mostly, he’s having hiccups as I write this – that happens every day.

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I’m still achy in the hips and pelvis, especially after doing yoga where focus is on stretching and opening hips a lot. After that I do feel like sticks and stones have broken my bones! Hopefully though it is for the best and will ease the birth. In addition to the good old hip pain, I’m also experiencing difficulty breathing, like my nose and airways swell up, especially in the evenings, and I feel like I’m choking. I don’t know if the reason is the dry air due to central heating, or maybe the baby is laying on some blood vessels, restricting blood flow. Also, for a few days I was experiencing hormonal fluctuations, which caused me a few pimples, which I don’t mind, these are the least of my worries. But they also brought on a range of negative emotions. I was angered to the point of tears about what now seems small, insignificant things. Cried my eyes out one day because there was not enough natural daylight to successfully take bump pictures so that they wouldn’t be blurry. Picked myself up the next day, but still felt like crying over little things. Cried a bit about finances melting like butter on a hot sunny day.

Another day, a week ago I kind of had a good day where I got a lot of things done – I went to yoga in the morning, came back home, had a snack, then went to a car workshop to put winter tyres on, and after that went to Baby City shop to buy a bathtub for baby. On the way to the baby shop I needed to pee badly, and was already moaning with pain on the way there in the car. However, when I got out of the car – that’s when it got real! I felt like I can’t move and take a single step because the baby’s head was laying right on my bladder and it felt like it’s the heaviest bowling ball ever. With difficulty, holding on to my partner, I made it to the toilets. Felt so much better after, such a relief. We could move on with buying the baby bathtub. Apart from the peeing thing, seems like a good, resultative day, yet when I was finally home, I crashed onto the coach and all I could do is cry, the long, tiring day and the pee situation had gotten me. This time I didn’t let it continue for the rest of the evening, I let the tension and the tears out, wiped them off after a moment, picked myself up and moved on. I’m proud of doing so because I know how much my emotions affect the baby. Previously, after the first day of depression over the bump pictures, I barely felt the baby move or kick in the belly the next day. So, the sadness and depression gets to him too. I must keep it together for him. Should do things that make me happy.

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Sooo pretty! I love how every smallest twig has a fluffy white blanket!

The first snow came like a ray of sunlight – something nice, instead of the gloomy, cold and wet autumn weather. Now the snow is covering everything like a thick fluffy duvet, I feel so Christmassy! I listened to the Coca Cola Christmas song over and over, it’s so cheery! This might be the first Christmas away from my family, but I hope it will feel special, with our little bundle of joy as the biggest gift we could have.

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Hospital suitcase almost done

I’m slowly getting things checked off the baby-related list. The baby now has a GP, hopefully I’ve made the right choice, the doctor seemed nice when I met her. Have also packed 90% of the hospital suitcase. I now still have to write down a birth plan and I have to wait for baby furniture to be ready. For some reason the shop where I ordered the furniture has not been answering the phone yesterday and today. I hope that doesn’t mean that I will have to start over with the furniture…

This week I had the third and final ultrasound, and Hallelujah, everything is ok! The baby is laying with his head down, is still a boy – saw his balls. Ha ha! He weighs about 2.4 kg, which means he could be about 3.5 kg when I give birth, depending on when that happens. If he comes after the due date, he’ll be bigger. According to the ultrasound specialist, the growth rate now is about 300 grams a week, and my diet affects it. That seems quite a lot. I feel a bit anxious about it, considering that I crave sweets a lot and can’t resist mostly.

Something I wanted to do but wasn’t sure it would happen is a pregnancy photoshoot. As always, the reason why not is finances. A photoshoot would mean a few pretty pictures that make me a bit poorer. In the end, I was presented with an opportunity right when I was doing research about it, and me and my partner decided to go with it. We did a half-hour long shoot and paid 40 euros for it. I enjoyed it a lot, very positive, we giggled a lot, I felt pretty and…. fluffy would be the word, I guess. I think I’ll be blushing, red faced in half of the pictures though, that’s what I’m like. It takes for someone to look at me and it seems like all the blood in my body rushes to my face within nanoseconds. To my surprise, my partner did very well with posing. Up to now he has hated pictures of himself being taking, and him posing for a photo has meant that he just stands there frozen with a weird poker face, no smile, no emotion whatsoever. So, that was nice and positive. About 3 weeks to wait for the pictures, which seems like eternity now. The photographer was very nice too, telling us what to do, what positions to take and implemented the ideas I had too.

For now, that’s all from Ms. Bumpiness!

33 weeks pregnant!

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I am almost 33 weeks pregnant, bumping along, only 7 weeks left until the due date. Thinking more and more about birth, especially because I’m reminded of proximity of labour every time I get a fake contraction, aka a Braxton-Hicks contraction. Mostly they are just uncomfortable, but here and there I can also get a bit painful one, which makes me practice some breathing and relaxing. It will be hard and I hope I’ll be strong enough and will be able to bear all that eminent pain.

I am looking forward to meeting my baby, holding it in my arms for the first time and look into his eyes. At the same time, I feel like it’s going to be a bit weird not having a baby bump anymore, I think I’ll be feeling empty without it. But what I’m really looking forward to is feeling normal, being able to switch sides in bed or stand up without pain in my hips. And I’m hoping that my body won’t look flabby and weird with loose skin on the tummy. Thank god, I still don’t have any stretchmarks, and hope I won’t have any, although they can pop up in the last week of pregnancy. What I have noticed I do have is cellulite, which is bad, but easier to fix than stretchmarks. So praise Shiva and pray to him about all this.

Apart from the painful hip situation, I’m feeling alright. My main focus physically now is to not fall ill – it is autumn, it is cold and damp outside, which makes many people fall ill. I don’t want that but have been on the edge of getting ill for a couple of weeks, so now I’m avoiding being outside for too long, as the cold air instantly irritates and makes my throat sensitive. That sucks because I’d like to go on a walk and be active in fresh air, but because of this I can’t do that and am stuck at home mostly, which is boring and a bit depressing.

My pregnancy brain is manifesting lately as well, lots of small things that I forget but it also got dangerous once. I was driving home with my partner and was approaching a traffic light for a pedestrian crossing. The light went red but somehow my brain registered that as red for the pedestrians, not me. In shock I watched how many shameless people were “braking the rules”, crossing the street during that “red” light, whilst seeing me approaching in my car. I even was about to beep them to show how shocked I was and that you can’t do that. Luckily I had my partner next to me to look out for things like that and he returned me to reality, by repeating “Red light!” three times. Only then did I realise that the red light is for me, not them, and stopped just in time. Thank god for him, because I don’t think I would have stopped, and don’t know how that situation would have ended without him. Not a nice glitch in my brain.

I’m almost done getting baby products and essentials, only a few things left to get. We ordered a 3in1 pram on ebay, cost us 315 euros, which is dead cheap for a normal quality product. I just don’t see the point in spending big money on things like that, some prams cost even over a thousand euros, and that’s just insane! You can buy a car for that! I’m satisfied with the purchase and happy that I could cross one major purchase off the baby list. Another expensive thing to use with the pram and car seat is Lodger Bunker footmuff, which is like a very warm sleeping bag for the baby for winter especially. That cost me around 80 euros. I was thinking of buying a used one cheaper, but these things apparently are so popular and in demand, that as soon as anyone posts an advert about selling theirs, it’s sold and gone within minutes, if not seconds. We have also ordered a crib and a wardrobe with changing surface for the baby, which should be ready in about two weeks.

I also have enough baby clothes and have been washing ironing them recently, which is very tiring and time-consuming. The new-born clothes need to be ironed both from the outside and inside, for the time period while the baby’s belly button is healing. Today I washed the last load of baby clothes and will iron them tomorrow most likely. That is when I’ll be ready to start packing the hospital bag. Excuse me, no – the hospital suitcase. It’s literally like going camping, you need to take so much stuff. I’ve only put in there a labour set of diapers and pads for me, a sterile labour set, and a package of diapers for the baby, and the suitcase is already half full. This is ridiculous. My partner keeps joking, saying: “Don’t forget to pack the kitchen sink!”

Another thing to strike off the to-do list is filing for pregnancy leave money, which I have done, and already got the money, which will have to last for about three months I think. All I had to do is get a sick-leave certificate from my doctor, go to the state social insurance agency, fill in a form, and file both these to an employee. I can apply for the next lot of money – childbirth support – only 8 days after the baby is born, which might be around Christmas holidays. That will complicate things, I think, I’ll definitely have to count on delays with transferring money because who even wants to work around that time! So I most likely won’t get any more money until next year.

One thing I have been delaying doing is finding a GP for the baby. Not a big thing to do or much effort, I just haven’t gotten around doing it. I’m now committed to do that in a week’s time.

I have an ultrasound and a check-up scheduled in two weeks, which is exciting – I’ll get to see how my baby is doing, what position it is in, and if it is still a boy. Until then – Pooot! :p

Approaching 30 weeks of pregnancy

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In 4 days I will be 30 weeks pregnant and my maternity leave will start officially. I am already off work, using up a week of vacation days that I had left. So whoopty-doo, no more working for at least a year! I brought my work computer to the office, so now I’ll be able to free up a bit of space at home and arrange furniture so that there is place for baby’s bed and wardrobe, which we don’t have yet.

Today is the first day that I went out to charity shop and Kilomax clothes shop to buy some clothes for the baby. Otherwise I couldn’t spend a cent on baby things earlier because our budget was quite tight after car repairs. Now I have just been paid, so I want to buy everything! I am looking for the cheapest options though, I don’t understand how a long-sleeve onesie can cost 15 euros at normal clothes shops. I bought quite a lot today and only spent around 20 euros. The clothes are only going to last a few months, so I don’t see a point in spending a lot. Same as with pregnancy clothes for myself. I’ll only get one pretty and new outfit for baby for homecoming, after all it is a celebration. 🙂

I also went to pharmacy today to get Pregnacare vitamins – I’ve been taking Amway Nutrilite daily ones, but ran out a few weeks ago, and thought I would give myself a break from those specific vitamins. That was not a good idea, I’m deteriorating – my nails have become brittle and have started peeling and my tongue problems have aggravated. So, at the pharmacy, I found the vitamins in the shelf and was just looking at other baby stuff, just to see what they have, what I’ll need, etc. The cashier offered her help, asked if I need to buy things for labour, told about how it is cheaper to buy a set for labour, rather than buying diapers and pads and stuff separately. I ended up getting that, and a sterilized labour set (which should be provided by the hospital, but is recommended that I get it myself). In the end she gave me a special discount because we are frequent customers there, and because it’s for a baby, as well as the Pregnacare vitamins came with a gift – a onesie for the baby. Plus I got a 2 euro coupon for the next purchase there. So quite a pleasant experience there, nice that the cashier was so kind to help and give a discount.

I’m happy about buying things finally, as I’ve felt quite anxious about it, the due date is quickly approaching and I want everything taken care of ASAP, so I don’t have to think about any of that and can relax and just enjoy the rest of the pregnancy. Right now, we haven’t gotten much, apart from what I’ve written above. No crib, no pram, no car seat, no wardrobe. The small things, however, are the trickiest because there’s so many of them.

My partner told me that last night I was talking in my sleep. He said I tapped him, and murmured something about the list. He asked a few times, what list, to which I eventually responded – the baby list! So I’m even anxious in my sleep. I’ve now drawn up two lists: general baby list, and hospital “bag” list. Really it will be a suitcase because you practically have to take your home with you, even spoons, forks, mugs, towels, water, anything you could think of, even toilet paper. As if we were going camping for a week. It’s so ridiculous, really. Good thing we don’t need to take a tent, sleeping bags and blow-up mattress with us. Seems like they will literally be providing us only with four walls. What a nice, civilized EU country we’re living in! I really hope I won’t have to stay there for too long.

As to pregnancy symptoms and how I and the baby are doing, everything is kind of the same as a few weeks ago. My hips are still hurting; my lower back muscles start aching when I go on longer walks, but I still try to have them anyway, determined to keep up my stamina. I haven’t really gained much weight lately, and even the bump size seems the same – 101 cm. I guess the baby is growing upwards of my tummy instead of forwards. The baby is active, sometimes makes me jump from unexpected and even painful kicks. Had a doctor’s appointment last week, again, no problems, everything looks good.

This week I also went to pregnancy yoga class for the first time, and enjoyed it very much. I just love the atmosphere at the yoga centre, and the class really is much better than the exercise classes I went to before. What I really loved was that the end of the  yoga class was us mummies just laying down while the teacher worked with singing bowls. I just loved it.

Tomorrow I’ll go to so-called Mummy Thursday at Domina shopping centre. It’s like a free class for mummies, covering various topics, taking place once a month. Hope it’s interesting.

Lastly, another list we need to make – baby names. At least that doesn’t cost anything. Maybe just my nerves. 😀

26 weeks pregnant!

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I’ve come so far – the end of second trimester, where the journey starts to end. So proud of myself for being a strong and mostly happy mummy to be. I’ve had moments of sadness and tears, even just a few days a go, but mostly I remember the good and the happy me.

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Baby bump has grown quite big and symptoms of pokey stomach have changed to achy pelvic bones/hips. My hips are naturally quite narrow and stiff, I can do the splits only in my dreams. So no the bones are shifting for my precious baby to be able to slide through unharmed. However, the pain is quite annoying and I hope it won’t make me unable to stay active for the rest of the pregnancy, which is important. I want to be strong and prepared for the labour.

In addition to occasionally doing some yoga stretches plus squats and other strength building moves, which I do at home, I’ve started attending so-called pregnancy movement classes. They also help, although some of the things or movements seem unnecessary and too easy, and the class instructor doesn’t seem to know how to breathe right sometimes. Well, whatever, I breath the way I know to be right. The classes means something regular, otherwise I tend to be too lazy sometimes and lack motivation to get off the couch when I’m home.

In addition to hip pain I’ve also gotten coming and going small painful lumps in my armpits, which feel  like a huge painful pimple. Doctor explained this today, saying that there are glands in the armpits that are a part of breasts and that they are getting ready for milking, the same as boobs are. So nothing to worry about.

What has made me worry and triggered me to go into miserable crying mode is that my blood test results came back with diagnosis of iron deficiency anemia, as my hemoglobin level has again fallen to 106, and iron reserves are low too. It made me feel so angry because I’ve already been taking so many vitamins, iron especially – in shape of pills and a syrup too. It all seems to have been in vain and I was so very disappointed. Now, unfortunately, I have to take iron supplement called tot’hema in ampules, which is what I wanted to avoid and tried to be so diligent with vitamins. Oh well, I’ve come to terms with it, I guess it could be worse.

Another test that I had to do is glucose tolerance test, to make sure that there are no tendencies towards diabetes. For this I got my blood drawn first, then I had to drink a big glass of very sweet sugary water, sit at the lab waiting room for an hour, get my blood drawn second time, then wait another hour, and then get blood drawn the third, and last time. So my arm got poked with needles three times, as a result of which it is now bruised and looks like that of a drug addict. 😀 The results of that test were OK, at least that’s good. Like everybody else in town, I got up early and was at the lab shortly after its opening time. I had to wait in queue for 30! other people to go first, which took me nearly an hour just waiting for my turn, as there were only two employees servicing people. Could have easily slept in and gone there around 10 am, as that was when there was almost no people there, no queue at all. I was eventually sitting there alone, reading my book in the waiting room. My bum was stiff as hell after sitting in their uncomfortable chair for so long.

Keep on bumping until the next time!

24 weeks pregnant!

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Two more weeks and the second trimester will be done! Time flies so fast, I can’t believe how little is left. Also – can’t wait for maternity leave, so I don’t have to work and can be lazy (lazier). I’m not getting much work anyway, but then I wouldn’t be tied to the work computer.

There isn’t much of pregnancy symptoms to tell, or maybe I’ve just gotten used to them. Still sometimes feel stabbing pains in the tummy, but quite rarely and not as bad, so the extra magnesium supplement has helped. I’m taking extra iron supplement too, and will see if that improves my blood test results when I next do them. Another annoying thing is the itchy skin on the bump, but for some reason it has gotten less itchy (or, again, maybe I’ve gotten used to it). Emotionally I still can get upset by small things, and my mood gets spoiled a lot if my partner starts being cranky or bickering about unimportant things.

One of the things to get upset about was coming up with clothes to wear out on a summery day. Comfortable and good-looking is getting harder and harder to achieve. I have significantly less amount of T-shirts that I can wear because most of them have gotten too short and my bump is hanging out. However, I’m not going to buy new summery clothes because summer is almost over anyway.

[caution – disgusting paragraph] I got shocked a little about my boobs. They haven’t gotten too big or anything, and I was looking at them one day and thinking – how the hell is there going to be milk coming out of these? I can’t see anywhere that they could come out of, as my nipples are just solid flesh. Sounds stupid, but I can’t find and see any holes or dents or anything of that sort that would expel the milk after the baby is born. So, being curious, I squeezed one boob, and to my surprise and shock, a drop of clear liquid came out of the nipple, and not the middle of it, but the corner! Squeezed the other boob, and the same happened, but the liquid came out from two spots on the nipple. Well, that was exciting for me. 😀 Every day is a school day, I guess, and it’s weird seeing my body do that. Also, it was a bit reassuring, I am now certain that I won’t have problems with breastfeeding or with absence of cholostrum/milk when baby is born. So there you go, some detailed, disturbing and weird nipple discharge discoveries from me! 😀

The baby is quite active, I’ve gotten used to him fluttering his extremities in my tummy, and not only can I feel the movements, I often also see them. Makes me feel proud and happy.

A little problem that I have with myself is eating. Because my stomach and all other intestines are pushed up and squeezed in, I have to eat small portions of food frequently instead of 2-3 normal sized meals. I’m finding it difficult to do because I just don’t get hungry that fast and don’t feel like eating often. But when I do, I can’t stop eating, I don’t feel full and want more, more and more. Only when I have stopped, in 10 minutes it dawns on me how much too much I’ve eaten – I almost can’t move or be active, breathe heavy, and every smallest burp feels like could be more than just an innocent burp. 😀 I need to learn modesty when it comes to meals.

Ever since I’ve gotten pregnant, I think some sort of baby mania is happening to me. Whenever I’m out, my eyes are like scanners for other pregnant women, I always notice them, even if they are early in their pregnancy and it is barely noticeable. Well, there is also a children’s playground in the park next to my home, so not much surprise there. But it doesn’t stop there. Nature is also showing me babies all the time. At my home I have an orchid-type plant that never blooms. It had one tiny flower when I moved to my previous flat, but other than that, no action at all. Now, not only has it bloomed, but full on with many flowers. Also my two aloe veras are both having babies. So my plants are following my suit. 🙂 It’s not just plants – also babies of birds have been kind of in my face. When me and my partner visited his parents in the UK, we had a nest of house martins right above our window, which had baby martins. On the second day of us being there, the baby birds were learning to fly, bumping into the window and clumsily landing on the windowsill outside. That was very cute. 🙂 Then another day we went on a walk to a canal about an hour’s walk away, and of course, there were ducks in the canal, and of course, also ducklings. Nothing that special, it is the season after all. We fed the birds some bread, and afterwards sat down on one of the benches next to the water. And then, the most surprising thing happened – the mother duck and its ducklings came out of the water, not just anywhere, but right where we were sitting, in front of us, and started rearranging and tidying their feathers, in order to go on a nap! I haven’t seen anything like that before – usually animals are more timid than that and at least would have chosen a different spot for napping. To me all these occurrences are just fascinating, and I see them as good omens and blessings from nature for me and my little mini-me. It is all so sweet and touches my heart. 🙂

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Meh…

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That’s how I feel today – meh… woke up at 7 am, stayed in bed for a while, trying to fall back asleep, failed at that, got up, had breakfast. Then got back in bed and slept until noon. Feel tired and uninspired, at least today. Would love to just lie on the couch all day, watching TV, but thought I should at least do something “constructive”. Also, there isn’t really anything to watch. 😀 So here I am to whine about my life. 🙂

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I’m in my 23rd week of pregnancy, proud that I have made it this far – all this is hard work. It isn’t too bad in the recent week or two, but before that there were a few days when I was thinking (and saying) – I’m done. I can’t. Can someone else just take over now, even just for a little bit? I just want to feel normal! This better be worth it, because I’m going through so much, and I do believe I’m having it easy. My tummy is itchy as f**k, I’m smearing whatever I can on it, praying that I won’t get stretchmarks. My guts are in pain from every little gas that passes through my intestines, I proper can’t hold back moans when that happens. Every time I go to pee, which is every half-hour sometimes, I get stabbed in the tummy, so much, so painful, that I can’t even stand up straight afterwards and feel like I need a walking stick like an old crab. My mood swings are also not nice, I can be set off to tears by the smallest things, and have to remind myself – it’s just hormones, it is alright, It’s not that bad. I spent half of a night until 4 am crying because I didn’t feel comfortable. One evening I just sat in bed and cried, and laughed at myself at the same time because I didn’t even have a reason, I just felt like crying. I struggle putting socks or shoes on, or even trousers, anything, the bump is in the way. I’m always hungry, and when I eat, I feel I’m blowing up like a balloon, can’t move, just want my couch. I can’t imagine how I’m going to be able to carry the baby bump when it gets, like, 3 kg heavy because it’s already hard, and it now weighs only around 0.5 kg. On top of all that, I need to stay active, exercise, walk a lot, etc. to prepare for the hard work that is labour. And when I’m active, my left ear pops and I can’t breathe like a normal person because of it. Also my brain often leaves me and I can’t name things or describe what I’m thinking, so my sentences end up containing mainly the words “thing”, “thingy” and “stuff”.

That is how I felt a few weeks ago. I have either gotten better, or have just gotten used to most of the above, and it isn’t too bad now. By the doctor’s recommendations I’ve upped the dose of magnesium supplements and am also taking cranberry syrup for bladder health, I guess that has helped somewhat. Two days ago me and my partner went for a long walk, for over two hours, in a brisk pace. That is very good, considering that a month ago it was half-hour in a slow pace and I almost crawled back home with stabbing pains in my tummy. A very good improvement. My mood is usually also good, some days I feel so good, I want to dance, be goofy and active.

I went shopping for clothes again to charity shops, and am very glad that I bought two new pairs of maternity trousers/jeans, two maternity T-shirts, and a onesie for the baby. The first maternity jeans still kind of fit but are not very comfortable anymore. I’m very glad that I don’t have to spend a fortune just on clothes for myself that I’m only going to wear for a few months.

Tonight me and my partner are going to attend the first class on childbirth (out of three classes) at the hospital where I’m planning to give birth. We’ll see how that goes, I’ll take laptop with me, but don’t know how much I’ll be able to use it. Was hoping to write down everything that the midwife says in English, so that my partner can also understand what’s going on because he doesn’t speak Latvian. He understands some bits of conversations in Latvian sometimes, but mostly he normally just zones out. 😀 Don’t really want to be the person who is annoying to everybody else because of whispering translation into my partner’s ear. I hope we’ll be fine. 🙂

Have seen two movies about mums in two days. We watched Mother’s Day at home, and yesterday treated ourselves to watching Bad Moms at the cinema. It was so funny, we loved it! Want to go see Ghost Busters next, enjoy the ability to go places while we can! 🙂

 

It’s a boy!!! 20 weeks!

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I’ve gone half-way through my pregnancy now, I’m a bit more than 20 weeks, and I had the second trimester’s ultrasound done 10 days ago and found out the gender – it is a boy, just like I thought it would be, before I even conceived, and even before I met my partner. LOL.

Everything in the ultrasound looked perfect, it was a bit bigger than I thought it would be, but according to measurements it matches its age exactly. It’s spine looked so pretty, like a zipper, and he was sucking his thumb in the end, so adorable! My partner will have to wait until next pregnancy to have a daughter.

Some pregnancy symptoms that I’ve had are more visible veins on the sides of my tummy, I’ve snored a lot lately, although I think its because of a too big pillow, a little bit of fatigue, but not too much. Also, I sometimes get emotional and upset about things that are not going my way, and it’s very difficult to stop tears from coming. I do try to tell myself that it isn’t that bad, that it’s all hormones, that sometimes helps, sometimes it doesn’t. I really don’t want to lose my cool, my reasoning abilities, don’t want to be a psycho hot mess mum.

The baby bump is seemingly getting bigger with each day, the skin is getting tighter, and it itches like hell too, especially around the belly button. I try not to scratch to avoid stretchmarks, and lather the skin with stretch-cream, bio-oil, and healing cream. I do suspect that I’ll get stretchmarks anyway, I don’t think my skin is very flexible. But we’ll see. 🙂

I’m starting to think about getting baby stuff, such as car seat, a pram, a scarf sling, some clothes. I want to do it all gradually, so that the costs are leveled out through the months. I also need new, bigger maternity jeans for wearing in autumn and winter, as I have gotten a bit bigger and it is quite difficult getting the first ones on at the rare occasion that I wear them this summer – I prefer looser, comfier clothes instead. I will also need some bigger T-shirts too for the growing bump.

We are now visiting my partner’s parents in UK, and went to London for two days with them. I’m very proud of myself for how much I walked around, to the point of lower backache, but I got through it. Thankfully the baby also endured it very well, with no bad signs or anything. Hopefully I have now walked so much that I’ll have strong legs of steel for birth. 😀 We were at the Hyde park, saw the dinosaur section of the history museum, saw the Buckingham Palace on the second day, and went to the Sea Life Center. Did not go on the London Eye ride because, even though I’m not afraid of heights, I don’t want to get a vertigo feeling while pregnant. Some other plans flopped, but at least I can say I’ve seen more than the train station in London and my partner’s parents’ home town.

Having a nice time here, and partner’s parents also gave us the first gift for the baby – a plush bunny, which is very cute. 🙂  A pretty white&blue blanket is also being crocheted for my little nugget. I assume we’ll be getting some more gifts from close relatives, now that they know the gender. At least I know my mum planned to get us some baby clothes or something while she was in America and was a bit upset that gender is not known yet, and she wouldn’t know what colour to get. I know that my mum is knitting something too. 😀

Everything seems to be going very well so far, and I hope it all stays that way.

Almost 18 weeks pregnant

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In three days I’ll bet 18 weeks pregnant. Two more weeks from that and I’ll be halfway! Good job! 🙂

Yesterday I had my regular pregnancy check-up with my gynecologist, and everything looks OK, he listened to the baby’s heart tones, measured my blood pressure, I weighed myself, and everything looks good. My blood and pee was taken for testing, I’ll be able to see the results online in a day or too probably, but all in all I’m sure they are fine because I feel good overall, I’m taking my vitamins, and trying to eat healthy and stay active. Trying – not always I do that. Some days it is still just me and the couch, and then other days I overdo it.

I had two symptoms I had to complain about – stabbing round ligament pain and my tongue, and both of which require me to take even more supplements… ugh.. I don’t want to turn into a pill eating machine, but whatever, you gotta do what you gotta do.

So the round ligament pain occurs when I’ve been walking too much, or it is just there regardless of what I do. One day me and my partner went on a walk which usually would be fine, but now it turns out it is a bit too far for me. The second part of it was just stab-stab around the area of my ovaries on each step. We’ll be going to UK in two weeks where we are planning a stay in London, going sightseeing, etc. That’s gonna involve a lot of walking, so I hope I won’t be in pain all the time because of it. I’ll try taking extra supplement Magnesium + B6, which is supposed to help, or some no-spa. Other than that, apart from being caused by too much walking or strain, for two days I just had the pains for no reason. It might be because of a hormone or growth spurt in there, which caused the ligaments and everything else stretch a lot and quickly. So I was just mostly on the couch again for those two days, moaning in pain from time to time. For those two days, food and gas passing through my intestine was also very painful. Thank god I work from home and don’t have much work lately, and can pass gas with no judgment from anyone. It was really basically pain pain pain, moan moan moan, fart… and a sigh of relief. 😀 lol. Speaking of farting (sorry, I know, not very ladylike), when you’re pregnant, tumblr_ne3200Jmw81qbmm1co1_500your dignity goes out the window and you get a lot of gas that you just cannot hold in, even if you try because the hormone relaxin makes everything in your body relax, including your anal sphincters. I’m mostly home, so that means less embarrassment for me and it’s just funny (my partner doesn’t care, thankfully). Has anybody else had a situation where they accidentally fart, and start chuckling about it, and on each “ha-ha” some more fart comes out? LOL!

Returning to my pains, another piece of info that nobody will enjoy reading, but I want to be truthful, so – sorry but not sorry. The pain also appears when I use the toilet, have a pee, that is. My theory is that as the bladder empties, it vacates some space in the tummy and that makes the uterus move towards it slightly. And that causes pain. For those two days the peeing has been a moanful experience for me. And after that, I walked back to my beloved couch or anywhere really, like a frikkin Quasimodo the hunchback because I just couldn’t stand up straight because of the pains. Well, my partner said he already sees me getting an epidural when I give birth. We’ll see about that! Challenge accepted! 😀

In the evening of the second day of pain I tried to do some stretches and yoga for pregnancy, and felt so much better that I even did some squats in the end. So that helped. Although, just before bed I went to pee and again, Quasimodo was crawling back to the bed…

Enough about all that pain and and pee and farts. The other thing I complained about is tongue inflammations that I’ve been having for the past few years but they have become worse and more often lately during pregnancy. So I went to consult with an oral pathologist and his diagnosis was migrating glossitis or geographical tongue. You can google it but I don’t suggest doing that, the pictures on there are mostly 100 times worse than what I have and they are just cringeworthy, so please don’t. Basically my tongue has a thinner protective layer or whatever, and therefore, more vulnerable to inflammations if I eat any spicy or vinegary food, which coincidentally is food that I like the most. Anything pickled, salads with vinegar dressings, chili olives, ginger, wassabi… mmm… :p So I get a small dot of red on my tongue if I eat anything irritating. Normally it would heal and go away, but for me it expands into a circle through my tongue, the middle of the circle is what I can call glossy, hence the name glossitis, where my taste buds have died off, and are in the process of healing and renewing. And the edges of the circle are red and inflamed, sensitive. According to the oral pathologist doctor, this is mostly genetic, but can be treated with a B vitamin complex. And it is worsening for me now because my greedy baby is sucking me dry of nutrients, squeezing me out like a lemon. Before pregnancy this tongue situation would go away in a few days if I eat neutral, non-acidic, non-spicy food (was not very good at that either, so it got quite bad sometimes), but now when I last had it, my tongue just hurt as it is, and from anything that I ate, except milk. Even apples or watermelon hurt my tongue. Not a good time. This isn’t anything too bad or deadly, it doesn’t affect my or my baby’s health, it is just an annoying discomfort. I’ll start taking the B complex supplement and will see if that makes things any better.

Enough of moaning, I also have good things to share. 🙂 Right when I turned 16 weeks (or 4 months) pregnant, I felt the baby move for the first time! I had done some yoga stretches in the evening and was just laying in shavasana for a few moments, mentally talking to my little nugget, with my hand over where he/she is approximately. And I felt some light strokes of movement in there. I wasn’t sure at first that it was actually real and actually the baby that I feel because most sources say that the first time you can start feeling it in the first pregnancy is around 18-20 week, and only women who have already given birth before, would recognise the movements earlier than that. One of my friends who has 2 kids said that I’m just imagining and it’s just gas that I’m feeling, etc, and she first felt it in 20 weeks, which felt like popcorn popping inside her. However, now that almost two weeks have passed since then, I’m sure it is the baby. As my partner’s mum said – you know your own body and if you think that you feel it, then you feel it. Exactly true! Two days ago, I even felt not just light strokes, but an actual punch/kick. That just makes me feel so lovey-dovey, it’s a proof that the baby is actually real, I am actually carrying another live being in me. 🙂 And it feels weird and surreal at the same time. Now that I recognise it, I’ve been noticing that it’s moving quite a lot, it’s like a little break-dancer or a parkourist, doing somersaults in there. Ha ha! 😀

My bump has gotten quite big now, especially when I’ve eaten, I’m showing a lot. Wearing it loud and proud! 🙂

I’m now booked for the second official ultrasound, which is in 10 days, right before leaving for UK. Hoping to find out the sex of baby, we’ll see if it has some cock’n’balls or or not. 😀 I had an idea where I could ask everybody to guess what colour baby socks I’ve bought, and after everybody’s on the edge, expecting gender indications of pink or blue, I’d say – green!!! 😀 I might do dat! Poot! 🙂